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On Fear & Faith

My baby turned two yesterday, y'all. I didn't even take to the internets to mourn because I was still processing. And now he is two years and one day old. He's practically three. It's all moving too fast!

Okay, enough hyperbole.

I spent all day yesterday remembering the day he was born. The anticipation, the joy, the preparation, the gratitude....and the fear.

the fear.

I flinch when I look back to two years ago and remember the fear. The feelings flood back so quickly, it takes my breath away.

This was the first time I held you.

I cannot look at this picture without tears. I remember looking at him and thinking how perfect and precious he was. I remember awkwardly introducing myself as "mommy" even though the words felt foreign and uncomfortable.

The JOY thick in the atmosphere, as well as the paralyzing fear creeping into the spaces left unguarded in my mind.

I hate (and I don't use that word often) that fear robbed me of experiencing the fullness of j…

Heart Grown

We are officially done with our required home visits for the Home Study! This is a huge milestone in the process because it's really the last official "action item" on our part before we become an actively waiting family. Our file will be presented to a committee sometime in the next week or so, and then our Life Book (A photo book that we put together with pictures and descriptions of who we are as a family so birth parents will have a chance to get an idea of what their child's life will look like if they choose us as the adopting family.) will be presented to birth parents that are creating an adoption placement plan for their child.

The Chosen Marathon is coming up in just a few short weeks, and we have such an AMAZING group of people who are coming to run, walk, and support! I always feel the tears coming anytime I reflect on our community of family, friends, and prayer warriors. This year's race will be unforgettable.



**It is not too late to get your Team …

A bit of an update

Our Baby Steps shirt fundraiser was a total success! We exceeded our goal by more than ten shirts! (We ordered a limited number of additional shirts, so please send me an email or FB message if you're still interested and I can check for your size.)

They should be ready in about a week, and we'll ship them out immediately afterwards!


We are officially on the docket for our home visits. This is the last step before we are officially a "waiting family".

The last time we were at this stage I was obsessive about everything being spotless and orderly. Well, these days that's nearly impossible with my adorable and charming little mess maker running around. I don't have time to stress about it like I did before, and I'm okay with that. I know they are not judging my parenting ability by the organization of my broom closet.

I really believe that God has been drawing me out into a space of total and complete authenticity in every circumstance. I want to be the best…

The Truth

The truth is adoption is hard. It is undeniably worth it, but it is hard all the same.

Going through this process means doctors visits, references, notaries, fingerprints, hours and hours of required training (in person and online), well meaning, yet intrusive interviews, the home study...the list goes on and on.

I don’t want it to come off as if I’m complaining, (well, maybe I am a little) I just want to highlight the reality that building your family through adoption is certainly a lot more complicated and less...umm..romantic than the more traditional route.

But, believe it or not, a HUGE reason why people choose not to adopt has nothing to do with a lack of desire…

A lot of people would happily jump through every blazing hoop I mentioned above if it weren’t for the overwhelming cost.

I’ll be honest, I don’t get offended very easily. I LOVE when people ask me about adoption. It is part of my very heartbeat and I am honored to consider myself an advocate. However, I once had a strange…

Baby Stepping

As I went on my evening run tonight I considered the seemingly infinite parallels I can make between running and being an adopting family. Daring myself to ponder the finish line while at mile one often seems too big. "There is so much ground to cover, so many mile markers, hills, and rough terrain in front of me." I find myself thinking.

Baby Steps.. Baby Steps.. Baby Steps..I remind myself.

One step in front of the other.

With both running and adoption we know that we are preparing.  We will be ready, and we are called to this.

With running it looks like hours of training, stretching, and planning increasingly long runs as we prepare for race day.

With adoption, it is prayerfully following a desire kindling deep in our hearts to come to the child that God has ordained to be a part of our family forever.

We were running toward Isaac for three years, although we didn't always feel it. During some of the most difficult seasons when we felt like tossing our hands up and th…

Big News: Party of Four

We are so excited to announce that we are at it again! We have started our journey to Baby Henderson #2! As soon as we moved to Houston last year we began to research agencies in the area. We finally decided on an agency that we feel very confident with and we are beginning the beautiful, yet often tumultuous journey that will allow us to grow our family through the blessing of adoption once again. As I held the intimidatingly thick application in my hands, I  prayed for God's perfect plan to unfold and his provisions of grace and mercy all around it.

This time around feels very different. We understand the risk of heartache after our experience in Jamaica with our sweet Alex, but we have also encountered the mountaintop reality of becoming parents. We have been a little trio for almost two years now with our precious son, Isaac. He is our greatest earthly treasure and joy.

It has been an amazing journey since bringing our boy home in November 2013. Most certainly, it has been cha…