Sunday, October 25, 2015

Heart Grown

We are officially done with our required home visits for the Home Study! This is a huge milestone in the process because it's really the last official "action item" on our part before we become an actively waiting family. Our file will be presented to a committee sometime in the next week or so, and then our Life Book (A photo book that we put together with pictures and descriptions of who we are as a family so birth parents will have a chance to get an idea of what their child's life will look like if they choose us as the adopting family.) will be presented to birth parents that are creating an adoption placement plan for their child.

The Chosen Marathon is coming up in just a few short weeks, and we have such an AMAZING group of people who are coming to run, walk, and support! I always feel the tears coming anytime I reflect on our community of family, friends, and prayer warriors. This year's race will be unforgettable.

**It is not too late to get your Team Baby Steps shirt. This fundraiser has been an immense support and blessing for us! We covered both the application fee and the home study fee with the money YOU generously donated to get your shirt.  I plan to put our final order in by the end of the day tomorrow (Monday, October 26) with our screen printers. So please,  CLICK HERE  if you want to get yours! We are so, so grateful!

I get a lot of people who ask me about adoption. As I've said before, I LOVE IT! I love talking about how growing our family in this way has been the biggest blessing of our lives. It hasn't been easy. For those of you who have followed our journey for any length of time, you know that there has been incredible heartache. You have also witnessed the ABOUNDING JOY that came when God brought Isaac into our lives.

That being said, we are experiencing a spectrum of emotions as we prepare for what lies ahead of us with the adoption of Baby H number two. We are anxious, anticipatory, excited, fearful at times, and a range of other emotions that I could spend all day typing the list... We continue to request your prayers that we are able hem ourselves in to what God has already gone before us to prepare. For our joy and His glory. Being a family that came to adoption by-way of infertility, we want it to be crystal clear that our children know that they were never considered to be Plan B.  We always say triumphantly that adoption is our family's A Plus Plus plan! In fact, it was incredibly important to us that we walked through the necessary steps to recognize that we would not have a biological child. After coming out on the other side of that healing process many years ago, we were truly given the blessing of peace to move towards adoption KNOWING in full certainty that this is the way God was and is planning to build our family all along. He is so faithful to finish the work that he starts. (Phil 1:6)

We talk to Isaac a lot about a future little brother or sister. He smiles and points right next to him, as if that's where he wants them to sit. It's so sweet. He will be a great big brother.

We are starting a narrative with Isaac to help him begin to understand his beautiful story. This came about after I witnessed a mom asking her toddler son, "Where did you grow?" The giggling toddler immediately fell into his mother's lap and placed his hands on her tummy.

So now, when you pose the same question to my boy, he will grin sheepishly at first, and then allow the smile to track across his whole face as he comes to me and points at my heart.

An Adoption Creed states: "Not Flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone, but still miraculously my own. Never forget for a single minute, you did not grow under my heart, but in it." 
It's funny, though, because in a real way it is very true. I do feel that as we get closer to bringing another baby into our home, our hearts are growing once again. It feels at times that it just might burst with love and gratitude. It may not be my tummy or my feet that are growing and swelling. As a matter of fact, it's not even visible to the naked eye. However, if you sit down and chat with Adam and I at any given moment, you will see it. Our hearts are growing in great preparation and expectancy, and we cannot wait to see what the next chapter of our journey will bring.

We love you, friends. We thank you.

Stay tuned.

K, A, & I