I've been feeling pretty crummy for the past few days. A head cold, I think. I did nothing today but lay around and veg out on my couch. We were hoping to go to Houston to visit with our families for Mother's day, but decided it was probably best to stay home and mend.
Of course, idle time lends a lot of room for thoughts. With Mother's day being tomorrow and all, I've been thinking a lot about my longing to be a mother. The role of mother will be one of the most significant roles I ever play in this life. I will be so grateful for the ability to have such a strong influence over the life of another. It will be a privilege to be entrusted to care for and love this child. I can't wait. I was on the phone with a dear friend and she said, "Just like with pregnancy, this waiting time provides you the opportunity to prepare, pray for, and love the child that is on its way to you." Thanks, Court, I appreciated your words more than you know.
Prepare for, pray, and love this child we will...for as long as it takes.
In the mean time, I want to take the time to thank all of the wonderful mothers that we have in our lives. From our own moms, to the mothers that our sisters and friends have become. I am so grateful for each of you. I cannot wait to learn from your wisdom. We have been provided with so many wonderful examples of motherly love, and I cannot wait to follow suite. I can't wait to experience this love. In starting this process of adoption I feel like, in a small way, I already have. I know that the love I feel will only grow stronger as the time goes on.
I'll leave you with another letter I wrote to our sweet child.
You feel far, far away right now. It's weird that it feels like I miss you, even though I don't know you yet. You will be the piece that completes our little family. It's almost Christmas and it's hard to see all the families everywhere I turn. We can't wait to one day hang your stocking and take you to see Santa. More importantly, we can't wait to teach you about our Savior, Jesus. His story is miraculous, just like yours will be. God found favor on Mary and rewarded her faithfulness. She trusted God, and we will too. We're still praying that every day and every moment will bring us closer to you.